The thing about the "last week" is it's full of a lot of goodbyes and that takes the edge off how excited and ready to go I am. I had a going away party yesterday. Or rather my friends had one for me. Mostly I've been feeling like, well I'll be back and forth a lot and I'll still be in touch with all my friends. And so in some ways this departure was feeling more like an extended business trip. But then at the end of the party yesterday Brian gave me a hug. Brian doesn't hug people. And I sort of stopped and thought, right, it's going to be a long time before I see Brian again.
Then tonight I was at a theater performance that the company I work with was doing. (Can't be a company member since I'm not an actor, but I've been a Saucy Lackey for a few years now.) Afterwards I was making the rounds hugging all of them - actors are huggy - and I ended with the friend who got me involved with them in the first place. After a couple of hugs I had to say, "I'm going to cry now, I have to go." Those folks I probably won't see for a couple of years. Though when I get to making my thesis film there's a few I'll be calling. But in so many ways it was those folks who enabled me to get as far as I've gotten as a filmmaker. I wouldn't be going to BU now if it weren't for them. I was able to start getting serious about films because I had fantastic people to work with.
And now I'm making myself cry again. I'm just going to stop.
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